n_atalia

Too all who thought I was all talk, Ha2u!
For two years I called this home my home.

I became a binge drinker and chain smoker, which I am not proud, of but I met the most amazing person who helped attribute to the vices one attains while living in a city known for its sin.
I cannot wait to wake up every morning and share a cup of coffee with my best friend.
I cannot wait to drive to our half way meeting point and purchase a cup of coffee with my best friend.
I can finally live in a city where my only two friends live, and I might burst with happiness.

I am finally going home!

Minimalism; mainly relating to Visual arts and music is the concept of stripping down bullshit and dealing with its main purpose/Idea.
I'd like to connect the idea of Minimalism to conversation.
Two hindu men walked into my store today; we engaged in a Minimalist dialogue consisting of an even exchange of our spiritual beliefs.
I later on received this email from the gentleman & I would like to share his spiritual eloquence with you.

Natalia,
Thank you for entrusting me with your email address!
Be sure that your trust in me will neither be misplaced nor misused.
Purpose of asking for your address was to allow me to relate to you on the spiritual matters, if you will, as you will leave tomorrow and may never meet you again!

And, I was pleasantly surprised to see an young American lady like you, so into this area that transcends the material/pleasure oriented stuff, that most people chase all their life long, here. Hence, you are different, a standout.

My compliments go out to you, and a lot of it.

If I had not mentioned it, I do have a spiritual side as well, and I take it seriously.
As I read the book, A New Earth, it describes, quite accurately, how EGO plays with our mind and thinking, and controls it, without it being the other way!
Uncontrolled ego, which is manifest in most people is also the cause of suffering for most.
Almost no one is aware of what ego does to the growth and lives of people.
Attachment to the ego leads to all jealousy, anger and unhappiness, and this reading shows, step by step, very accurately, how to be aware of ego, awaken to a new level of consciousness and be at peace within one's self and inner being.

If that is not wonderful, I don't know what could be Natalia.

This is far larger than anything in life, to know yourself and accept.

Thank you for also asking my real name. I appreciate that quite a bit.
99.9% of people here ever bothered to ask me this.
That is why you are unique.

Have a good and safe trip to LA and back.

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Best Regards,

I am not obligated to do anything to/for anyone or any purpose.

Religious pluralism; a term used to describe the acceptance of all religious paths as equally valid, promoting coexistence

I blame my hiatus on all the Swamis. The more I study these men, the more I realize that the title of Swami is easily attained if you prove to be a brain washed follower. The Bhagadavita will not save you; It will conform you to the anorexic life style, which will only lead you to hallucinate these guru like images.


You are not seeing god, I am sorry.

Hey,
its only 12 am
and I am drunk,
I wont share the amount of alcohol I consumed because it is quite disappointing.
I also will not share the location and occasion on why I am am slightly intoxicated.

Instead I will tell you that.
a. I love myself and hate all of you
b. everyone sucks except Adam
c. My tactics have changed, I am sorry gentlemen. The Hit it and Quit it Lifestyle did me no good. I am dedicating my heart to a NON american boy which I would rather not name because it is embarrassing and far fetched.
actually there are two non american boys.

oh and heres aLOL picture of me tonight which the location of the night which will remain unnamed did not podcast of me!!




sorry Bawanz i bet you wher expected a more stupid entry
LOL no one read this.

Its brilliant,
A water fountain which shoots out fire, to help tend to a smokers needs.

no more lighter jacking.



damn, I burnt my lips off again.

I'm going to make excuses for my insecurities and I thank the married men who have welcomed themselves into my life these past few months to make these "insecurities" apparent to me.

Excuse: I am like this because I dated a boy who pulled a knife on me.


When the truth is, I do not know why I sneak out and ignore all of you. Maybe I just don't like any of you.


I am sorry everyone, I am sorry I do not stay for breakfast and coffee.

it all started with Drummer #1 who cheated on me in our first week.
Drummer #2 indirectly informed me that i would never be good enough. After unintentional put down after put down he was out of the picture. Then The Skater woo'd me, again. 3years of bottled up emotion and geniune love all crushed by the ridiculious number of girls he was sleeping with on the side. Ah then The Rebound, The few  Pointless HookUps. oh and then The Actor which I broke, out of revenage for what Drummers one and two and the skater did to me.  Oh then The One I Constantly brag about..if it wasnt for the mass amount of drugs, medication and money he has things could have maybe evovled? oh yeah..distance. of course thers the large group of Regrets. and the Egotistical Jackass and now The Song Writer who had a legitimate excuse onto whyy i wasnt good enough for a title. But of course, im the one to blame for takin the words "open relationship" litteraly. and now hes going to run off and hook up with a 14year old girl.

AND THIS IS WHY I CHOOSE TO BE A PILOT !

kurtis just got home from rehab
and decided to come over and hang out with me

Standin' in the gangsta position